loving yourself when it's hard

I know you want to give up on yourself

throw in the towel and scream FUCK IT!

But don’t.

You haven’t lost all the work you’ve done on yourself.

You haven’t. That’s a promise.

You’re just being given an opportunity to love yourself

right now

when it’s really hard to,

when you used to give up on yourself.

prove to yourself,

on this spiral up the mountain -

where you revisit old patterns

and slip back into undesirable programs -

that you

still

choose

to

love

yourself.

believe in yourself

and take the courageous next step.

do not give up.

that’s what you used to do.

this is an opportunity to see yourself completely -

the pretty bits and ugly bits -

and to still choose yourself.

this hard, sticky, regretful, anxious, impossible-feeling moment

is exactly what you asked for when you prayed for your dreams.

this is the crossroads where you can pick left

when you’ve always picked right.

remember where your familiar choices get you.

this pain is just the wrapping of a gift you once asked for.

unwrap, unfold, unfurl.

gently.

take your time as you stand back up.

keep going with love.

remember,

the only way up the mountain is by tripping and falling.

so, well done.

if you’re tripping and falling,

you’re on the path.

these chances we are given to catapult us into new realities

arrive disguised as pain, struggle, heartbreak, loss.

remember to boldly see these as presents to be present with.

alchemise it all into your gold,

your gifts.

well done.

even in this impossible moment

you’re doing it.

Written 16th July 2025